I'm not enjoying work right now. I'm working 6 days a week for about 10 hours a day. Andzia no happy. I hate all humanity and I'm starting to sing extremely angerly. Angerily. Angrily. What ever. I'm to damn tired to care how it's spelled. I had to leave. Normally I just go out to the Boardwalk and breathe in the air and look at the ocean and just be. I couldn't. It's been too much. I had a lovely chat with my AM about her pay rate vs others who are getting hired & let me tell you folks, if you haven't figured it, retail fucking sucks. It sucks in paying people. We work too hard for too little. We have to deal with people. Not just a little bit. Every goddamn day. That's all that we do. And people are stupid. Now, don't get me wrong, a person can be smart, in fact, a person can be brilliant. People, as a whole, are rather fucking stupid. Believe me, I deal with them enough. And I have no more patience. It's been used up, sucked dry, exsanguinated if you will. It is all about the money. I have to keep telling myself it's a business, and rationally, I know it is. But we're talking about people here. People, who deserve to be paid what they're worth. But that's not how it works, and it sucks! Dammit! Mother of St. Petersburg Russia!
The hours suck, the pay sucks, and if there was a career that would cause me to want to commit general manslaughter, this would be it. Yet, I've been in it for nearly 8 years. It it should be time for me to get out. I'm planing on sticking it out for maybe 2 more years. Oh unholy shit, that would be a full fucking decade. But that is it. Either I'll be out, or a 600 lb raging alcoholic. Because I left early and you know what I did? I relaxed by drinking Belvedere Pomarancza, eating moose tracks ice cream and watching last week's Top Chef. Does anyone else hate the fact that the promos before the commercials give away too much? It's extremely annoying. But man do I love me some Belvedere. That is some good Polish Vodka. I'm trying the Pomarancza for the first time and am totally digging it. It makes a great spritzer with pear martini mix & Sprite Zero. I'm thinking of calling it...Retailtini. Or maybe, the Polacktini. Oh hell, just give me another one!
I'll definetly will need one on Wednesday. I get to go meeting in north Jersey where all the store managers get to meet the new familia of the company. This... will... be...interesting? We'll see what goes on, though I'm not going to kiss any rings, thank you very much. I'll report later on that. Though I did go get my hair cut in honor of the event. Come dressed to impress is what I was told, and my boring hair was not cutting it. So I joined the rest of the women in the US and got an angled bob. I had one of these in high school, which is really disturbing. Seeing a trend come back the second time around. And my 15th reunion is coming up in a couple of years. Mother of Pete, when did I get old?
Some bright news, Project Runway is returning in July. Awesomeness! This one, Bravo got soooooooo right.
